There's no easy way to interpret what one sees or experiences in this part of the world. Its difficult to remain objective, difficult to remain positive, difficult to not let it all get under your skin. I'm concerned about keeping myself grounded admist all this, and to keep a pulse on my own values. This seems especially important in a place where people bring a tremendous amount of faith to the land, their actions, and their life.
Oddly enough, the older I get, the more faith I have, but the less religion I practice. Visiting Jerusalem's old city during a previous visit, I had to wonder at my inability to feel anything when visiting the major sites of the world's three major religions.
Picking up everything I own, everything I value, and everything I care about, then moving half a world away to a place like this took a ton of faith in between those few moments of lucidity. Jumping off a cliff, throwing myself into a pack of lions - all that fear and a small bit of exhiliration. Among all that, I had to convince myself to have faith, not in a history, or a belief, but in myself and the world that somehow, will support me. Faith convinces me that I'm going to land feet first!
Oddly enough, the older I get, the more faith I have, but the less religion I practice. Visiting Jerusalem's old city during a previous visit, I had to wonder at my inability to feel anything when visiting the major sites of the world's three major religions.
Picking up everything I own, everything I value, and everything I care about, then moving half a world away to a place like this took a ton of faith in between those few moments of lucidity. Jumping off a cliff, throwing myself into a pack of lions - all that fear and a small bit of exhiliration. Among all that, I had to convince myself to have faith, not in a history, or a belief, but in myself and the world that somehow, will support me. Faith convinces me that I'm going to land feet first!
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